falling in love is like taking a deep breath after holding it for so, so long

Beauty School

If you can't change your surroundings try instead to change your perception of your surroundings, and how they apply to you.

Sweet Corn Ice Cream

Totally vegan, gluten free, dairy free

4 c corn kernels
1 c cashews
1/2 c agave syrup
1 tbs grated lime zest
1 tbs lime juice
1 1/2 tsp vanilla exract
1 tsp salt

Puree 2 cups of corn,1/2 cup cashews and 1 cup water til smooth. Transfer puree to another bowl, repeat with remaining corn/cashews/water.

Strain puree well, discard solids left in strainer.

Whisk agave/lime juice and zest/vanilla and salt. Mix all ingredients then throw in Ice cream maker following manufacturers directions.

Yumz!

The Technologies

"1) everything that’s already in the world when you’re born is just normal;

2) anything that gets invented between then and before you turn thirty is incredibly exciting and creative and with any luck you can make a career out of it;

3) anything that gets invented after you’re thirty is against the natural order of things and the beginning of the end of civilisation as we know it until it’s been around for about ten years when it gradually turns out to be alright really."

-Douglas Adams from his essay
How to Stop Worrying and Learn to Love the Internet
http://www.douglasadams.com/dna/19990901-00-a.html

Beets

To eat a beet
and then forget
that we ate that beet
to think, then, that we are bleeding

internally

when we see "bloody" piss

is to remember that we did
eat that beet
and to be happy to be alive

the answer

Is it better to be happy, but more reliably comfortable and stable or is it better to go out, take risks always and put yourself in uncomfortable situations in order to learn more?

The answer would be, as usual, a middle ground. But not to lose sight of the need for uncomfortable situations or happy comfort.

Because the Apocolypse doesn't have to be lonely

http://mingle2.com/zombieharmony/free-dating-sites

Who stole the cookie?

"Who stole the cookie from the cookie jar"
"Joey!"
"Joey stole the cookie from the cookie jar"
Joey, with delight "who me?"
"yes you!" the circle of children scream
"Couldn't be!"
"Then who?"
"ummm" Joseph deliberates for a moment "Arnold did, Arnold stole the cookie from the cookie jar!"
Arnold turns red, the class waits for his sing-song denial
Instead he grabs a fistful of nearby crayons and throws them at the circle
"I WOULD NEVER DO THAT I AM A DIABETIC!"
The class sits in shocked silence as Arnold runs from the room, teacher just behind.
Joey turns to the classmate on his left
"The funny thing is, he's not a diabetic, just a thief."

Things I thought about

whilst prissily grouching at work:

-All closing shifts and no early cuts 6 days a week make Madge want to kick down the host stand.
-It's just one week, surely next week there will be more variety.
-I'd rather work at 6 AM 6 days a week over working til ten 6 days a week.
-It's not the players, it's the goddamn game.
-Soon this will not be an issue, chill out.
-Ahhhhhhh!

Sunny Sheisters

Daniel: I hate those big "Jackie O" sunglasses.
Madge: Oh yeah, why's that?
Daniel: They trick you into thinking girls are hotter than they are. You get a glance and all you see is hair, end of nose and mouth. You have to really stare to see what they look like...yet another shoddy beauty tactic to fool men. You women should be ashamed.

Don't do this thing for anyone but you
or you'll spend your life wondering
was it the right thing to do

"You've been given a great gift George, the chance to see what life would be like if you'd never been born"
-Clarence the second class angel

Maybe he's right, most people probably would want to know. I'd like to see that, though I think probably my impact as it is wouldn't be so huge.

New Years

Been thinking about New Years Eve plans. We'll probably be having a party at my house this year. It just works better to be at home, getting drunk with your nearest and dearest rather than trying to find the best parties all over town or have to pay for an event and fight for booze and elbow room.
Thinking about that though, made me think about New Years Eve past, particularly when I was a little 'un, and what it meant then. Most of the time it was kind of boring, involved a babysitter and watching the ball drop on T.V., sometimes a friend was there.
It makes me wonder what other kids were doing for new years. Did they have slumber parties or family traditions? What did you do?

Few people became our role models because that was their intention. Most became role models because it was their intention to be themselves.-dad

Bitch is the new Black

"This is what bothers me the most, people say that Hillary is a bitch. Well let me say something about that. Yeah! She is. And so am I. And so is this one (points to Amy Poehler, who nods) Bitches get stuff done. That's why Catholic Schools use nuns instead of priests... At the end of the year you hated those bitches, but you knew the capital of Vermont."
-Tina Fey

Past Consideration

Love is more than one word. It’s been said before but still, societal norm is to place importance on romantic love and familial love alone. But there are many way of familial love and many ways of romantic love, like the difference between powdered snow and hard snow.

Romantic love, that feeling in your gut, that punch in your heart. Familial love, that warm feeling in your belly, that expansive uplifting love that can be shared with friendship love, those people who become your family, who shape you and you shape them. And on and on…

What it is that I desire is a bit of each, without too much struggle, please. A relationship needs work, it’s not work itself. A partnership is fun, it’s fulfilling, it contains the practical, it’s progressing and beautiful and you want to help and support each other. And if I can’t have that I’d rather be alone. But I think I can have that. I think I do now…I think I have before, but the timing wasn’t there.

Urgh. I don’t trust my own feelings anymore, I don’t feel sure of my next action. I’ve spent too much time thinking about the past, the future, what other people think and less time paying attention to how I feel now. And I want to shake that, and I think I will. I’m so close to clarity. With every new boy I kiss, every date I go one with a sexy/sweet/interesting man the more sure I am about progressing the other way. I think about how I should be working on my career, spending time with my loved friends, on my hobbies and in my bike community. About how I have someone in front of me that I resist missing when he’s not around, resist admitting that I might love, resist spending too much time with or getting too close or talking to friends about. Because it means something, I guess. But I could stop thinking so much about what my friends will say, about what I’ve said, about what he’s done in the past and see what is here, now and relax with the flow. Let myself be happy in this way again. But slowly. Very, very slowly.

Na na na

A diva is a female version of a hustla

Alone Times

Being alone after
Not being alone
for so long is freeing
and also lonely when at last
you are tired of yourself

100 cigarettes

I've dated enough narcissistically neurotic men to know that you are all just a pack of roving babies in search of a giant teat from which to suck the lifeblood out of me until I am a hollow shell.

New Ideas

“well what do you want me to do? I never said I wouldn’t try a new idea”
“yes you did! You said “I don’t want to try new things, I don’t like this”
“well I just meant then, not now!”
“So…then you do want to go down on me?”
“uh, yea…yeah”
“look, even if you tried it I wouldn’t enjoy it because I know you don’t enjoy it”
He puffed, exasperated “I just have never done it before! I just don’t like it yet!”
“Oh never mind!”
She left the room. He sat back, unhappy but slightly relieved.
She came back for an abrupt moment.
“…but don’t think I’m going down on you. Fair is fair.